Sound the Battle Cry

Under attack
Under attack
I'm under attack
and I can't look back.

I feel it. I feel the attack. It's coming from many different directions and it's driving me CRAZY!

It is absolutely maddening, and I struggle to continually remember that "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

But boy oh boy would it be easier to go off on another person for things they say, they way they say them, or the little irritating things they do.

I know, I KNOW, that it's not personal and I have no right to be offended, but I get so upset anyway.

Anyhow, since I can't give details, that's all I have to say. I am under attack and it's not weakening me, just pissing me off.

Eh.

And the Pressure Builds...

So, more and more I feel these emotions out of nowhere. Like the urge to cry, a feeling of heaviness, and now this anticipation.

I don't know what I am anticipating, but I feel like it's going to be a change. And it makes me nervous. I mean, my life is completely, in God's hands...which is what makes me nervous. He likes to make examples out of people and do crazy 'move you across the world and work harvesting figs' stuff with people. But he also likes to do 'let me introduce you into a whole new understanding of my love for all people' stuff.

So, I accept whatever is happening. Praise God for warning. Heh.

later.

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AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






whatever.